Its a new beginning

TGIF.

First thing I tweeted this morning. This week's been exhausting much. Esp Thursday. Monday was study session with Vanessa, Joy, Javier and Ting Hong after school at Ice cream cafe. Tuesday was nothing on. Wed was cca, IT WAS SERIOUSLY DAMN TIRING, first time feeling so shagged after cca. :o Thurs was music o levels followed by rehearsal at Thomson. Today was step up day.

Lets start with Thursday. School was ... ok.As usual, ended at 230, dabao-ed lunch to Music room. Had lesson. Rushed off at 6. When to pick brother up at Iluma before heading to Thomson for rehearsal. Managed to get one scene rehearsed. The little kids still need more brushing up and I need to be more ... idk. Shun. HAHA. Anyway. Yeap. Rehearsal ended at 915, reached home at 945. Bathed, 1010, do hwk till 1. Pro me. Had to chiong finish hwk to prevent myself from getting detention today. Totally shagged.

Today was a big day. Esp for us sec3s. It was the day of stepping up. To some, it may be just another guzheng lesson. But to me, it definitely wasn't. It ... was the day of fate(?)(Haha) Well. Lets get straight to the point since I'm seriously falling asleep soon. Here are the results.

Chairman: Yiying
Vice-Chariman: Joy
Treasurer: Xiaowen
Secretary: Clara

To my fellow sec3s, its a new beginning for us today. Its not gonna be easy, but I know it'll be worth it. So guys, lets work hard together to bring CCHMSGZ to greater heights.

To my the juniors, thanks for voting yea! :) Really appreciate your support. Next year will be syf''2011. Our goal would be maintaining our gold with honors. We all have to work really hard together to do so. So, lets all work together to achieve this goal! CCHMSGZ♥

To the seniors, THANK YOU for everything you guys did for CCHMSGZ. All the hardwork, the tears .. everything. :) Its the end of the road for you guys, but still ... its a new beginning too. Every hello comes with a goodbye. Good luck for your O levels! Work hard! Jiayous! :)


Well, I've said what I wanted to. I'm seriously damn exhausted naozzzz. Gonna sleep soon. Bye cyber world :)

A new chapter of you and I

Talk about being happy. I wonder how many of you will think. Is it a simple thing to do as claimed by some?
Many a times we wonder how we should achieve this happiness that some already may have. After watching five ways of happiness, it just seems ironic to me. Happiness seems so simple to them. It doesn't take millions of dollars, a thousand cars and houses or amazing results. It just takes a bed to sleep on, a roof over your head and food on the table everyday. Then why do some of us make it seem asnif it's so difficult to achieve? Ain't that what we get every single day?Maybe it's just because of that many ppl take the simple things we get for granted. It makes it seem compulsory in life. But I guess it rarely crosses our mind that some ain't able to fill their tummies everyday. I admit, I do feel as if life has been treating me unfairly. Looking at the situation I'm going through, I feel as if the hardwork I have put in has all gone to waste. I do feel "I put so much effort into the relationship, yet he left and loved her. Oh god, he's a damn fucking liar" but I guess, taking a step back, looking at the whole situation again. I think about what I did and what he did. Then I realize  we both had faults in the ending to this relationship. It has only been two months, they say it takes time to heal. I guess so.
Many a times I thinn that it will only take him to return to me to make me happy again, to put a double smile on my face again. But still looking atthe situation now, I doubt it will ever happen. Thus happiness seems so far for me to achieve right now. But hey, I have my friends out there who care for me as if I were their sister. I get smses like "hey baby, I just wanna say I love you!", strangers who reply to my tweets with "even though I don't know what's hurting you, but I just want you to remember that the sun always shine when morning comes". Friends telling me"you're the best" when I know I ain't perfect. Friends telling me "if you ever get back with him I won't friend you any more ah!" and friends who go "please stop thinking bout this. It only makes you unhappy".  Then I thinn about why am I so unhappy? Shouldn't I feel lucky instead? With my friends standing by me through this shit though I know they have their own problems too. I should feel thankful instead of feeling so down. Besides, he ain't the only guy out there. He doesn't even treasure me. He doesn't take every oppurtunity he gets to come and see me, calling me feels as if it's a duty instead of an enjoynment, he doesn't text me as often as I text him. He doesn't get what I did for him, he doesn't appreciate it, his souveniers were always bought last cause I always tried to make it perfect. He didn't know how much it hurts when he said I was hard to please. He didn't know I've always waited for him to text me till I really could not take it. He doesn't know the pain I'm still going through now. As all my friends have said "he ain't worth me."
Happiness is a state of mind. How we see our present. It's up to us to decide if we want to be happy. It's up to us to see if we want ourselves to be happy. You can either see the cup as half full or half empty.
So this is to all the ppl out there who deem their life as dull, borin and totally not worth living for. Let me tell you this. You are lucky. Much luckier than those people who live through the days trying to fill hit tummies, who live through the day with bellies bloated with air. You have a roof over your head. Three meals a day. They don't. You have people standing by you everyday in your life. People who talk to you, people who love you. And people who will stick through you through anything no matter how bad things may be. Unlike some who are left with no kin. You see? This is life. Not everything runs smoothly and falls into place like you wish they would. The walls are there to keep you out, to give you a chance to prove how much you really want something. Their there so that you'll finally realize how much something matters to you and how muh you're willing to give to attain that something.
So let's all smile and think about the positive things in life. Think about how much life is filled with, how wonderful it actually. Let's look at the good things in the cruel reality and appreciate everything and everyone that we have. Go on with life with a smile. Cause a smile is a curve that get things straight.
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I've learned a lot these months. But the ultimate thing I've learned is letting go. First letting go of him then letting go of my seniors. Yes their still here but not where I want them to be. So ... It's all about letting go. It's also about choices and how it'll affect my future. Also it's about listening to your heart and trusting your intuition. Somehow it's always right. Man. This is a long post. Today marks 2months since my heart got broken. But today ... It marks a new beginning too. A beginning to a new friendship where each of us have grown. I still can say, I've learned a lot from him. He taught me so much through the experiences we've been through. It's time for me to let go of the hatred. "when you no longer hate a person, you no longer love them" -Wan Ting
I know I should can I do it now?
Lifes been so hectic now. Reheasals are piling like mad. Performance is only about a month away. Gotto change my tuition timings. Man! Midyears coming too which means jve got lots of revision and piano practising to do! Really have to chiong piano. Mye is only a month away. A month doesnt even seem enough to master those pieces :( gotta work triplely hard!!! Study session with Javier and co tmr :) ciao world!

Choosing to turn the page again. It's a new chapter of you and me.

CCHMSGZ, I love you♥

Hey guys! Today was the well ... last official lesson with sec4s. Its seriously damn sad that their stepping down(I know i repeated this like again and again and again and again). I'll seriously miss them like mad. Guzheng will be different without them. Seriously, it will be VERY different. But still ...WE WILL SURVIVE(HAHA). :D I don't have much to post today, but I just feel that I have to post these words.

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING SEC4S! 

We'll miss you a lot!

We know you've put in your very best for Guzheng. 

So THANKS and Good luck for everything in future :)

♥♥♥

It was nervous day, many things happened

Hello all.
Idk why, I suddenly had the real urge to blog. Yay! Tomorrow's the last day of school for this week. Can't wait for more sleeping time! Well, I have like Chemistry to finish up which is due tomorrow and reflection to write on today's election and interview. Was damn nervous just now(OMFG). Ask those around me how I freaked out(LOL). Anyway, I think I did ok. At least I didn't screw the interview up. Ok, I feel damn guilty now that I ain't doing what I'm supposed to do. So bye people. Will be back with something tomorrow/friday :)

make up your mind for once,

you come to me and clear things up for what?? 

Not like my life got anything to do with yours right. -.-

I won't be the same again if you ever come back

"Sometimes you have to remind yourself that you deserve better. You deserve someone who treats you right and makes you happy. Forgot that asshole who made your life a mess and move on."

Hello world.
I'm supposed to be finishing my holiday homework now, but I'm stuck here since noon. Cause thats when I woke up. Been sleeping passed midnight everyday. Should really start adjusting back to normal sleep timings for school. Man, about 5weeks to MYE. Thats fast man. Freaking fast! :O
Election this Wednesday. Gosh man. Thats fast :O Still remember when I first entered CCHMSGZ, now its my turn to step up. Soon again it'll be my turn to step down. Time flies I guess. I've grown, I've learned so much. I've hurt, I've smiled.
I feel like writing a reflective blog post on life. Hmm. Well, lets start.

Firstly, I've learned that life contradicts itself. The phrase "Too many ain't a bad thing" can never be applied to life. Everything has to be just right. Too much sometimes ain't too good, but having too little means losing out on so much. I guess life's a roller coaster ride. You have your ups and your downs, but then it always makes the ride worthwhile. Be it in love, friendship, education, career ... anything, I've learned that if you put your very best into it you'll never regret. Even if you end up failing. Because what matters ain't whats on the other side of the road, what matters is how you did it, who you met, the ride itself. I've also learned that everyone is unpredictable and we should NEVER rule out the impossible. Impossible itself spells I-M-POSSIBLE. 
Always treasure every person you have in your life, you never know when you might lose them. Don't assume, because it only makes an ASS out of U and ME. (Ok, I'll make this shorter than expected) And lastly, always remember who made you fall and who helped you up.

HELLO PEOPLE BELOW, I LOVE YOU! <3

♥♥♥

I WANT BUS TRIP HOME WITH BEN&IVY TMR!!!! :D

Caves and rivers

Hello people! I'm back from Shanghai! Trip was awesome. :D So didn't want to return home. There's schooool you know. :( Anyway. Lets start blogging about the trip :)

Headed out at 430 to the airport, was half asleep. Reached and gathered. Soon we were on the plane off to Shanghai. Mixed feelings there, mixed feeling back. Visited Zhu Jia Jiao as soon as we reached. Saw famous china spamming. I tell you, China seriously damn into spamming one can! Spam salt, spam fighting for prices, spam honking of the cars. Wah madness lah their road. And they damn violent one can. OH MY GOSH(toilet adventure). Anyway, so after that checked in. The room was rather ok. The bed was hard though. Haha. And the balconies are connected. Went over to Qiulin and Jiaqi's room to scare them. HAHA.

Next two days were inland training. FUN FUN FUN! :D :D :D Then the next two days was sightseeing. Went to urban and suburban areas. Inland training was much more awesome than that lah duh! HAHA.

Ok, idk why this post so short. But I shall let pictures do the talking when I upload them on Facebook when I return.

Gna catch When In Rome with K naoz. Bye people!

/PS: COUSIN!! I think we damn you yuan can!! Your anni 22nd it was when we were supposed to have our anni too lah omg. HAHAHA. Loves loves loves. Hope to see you soon! Lets meet up! <3

I remember years ago

Someone told me I should take

Caution when it comes to love

I did, I did

And you were strong and I was not

My illusion, my mistake

I was careless, I forgot

I did

And now when all is done

There is nothing to say

You have gone and so effortlessly

You have won

You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now

Shout it from the roof tops

Write it on the sky line

All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard

Falling for betrayal is worst

Broken trust and broken hearts

I know, I know

Thinking all you need is there

Building faith on love and words

Empty promises will wear

I know, I know

And know when all is gone

There is nothing to say

And if you're done with embarrassing me

On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now

Shout it from the roof tops

Write it on the sky line

All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy

And my heart is broken

All my scars are open

Tell them what I hoped would be

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible!

Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago

Someone told me I should take

Caution when it comes to love

I did

Tell them all I know now

Shout it from the roof tops

Write it on the sky line

All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy

And my heart is broken

All my scars are open

Tell them what I hoped would be

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago

Someone told me I should take

Caution when it comes to love

I did..

I can sum up life with three words: It Goes On

Hello world. This week's been reallllyyyy hectic. Talent time stuffs all the way. Didn't have recess the 4days. Buts till, it was worth it. So lets post about Friday! :D

Friday had lessons as usual, last lesson was Amath test which seriously almost killed me. Then was CCA with damn intense finger technique training. Gosh! I hate the new nails. So difficult to use can! :( Left CCA early for talent time. Reached there and chiong finish banner. Total last minute work. After that went to change into talent time tee(mad chio) and then headed to LT to set up. Spent a lot of time taping the banner up onto the board. Well then the whole thing started. It was crazy just doing the usher part. People don't want to listen blablabla but still manage to overcome it. Had dinner at 830(WOW). After that went back watched talent time and cleared the stuffs. WOW. People love to mess up the LT I tell you. Chips on the floor, program booklet everywhere. And we practically ripped the banner out of the board! HAHA. Talk about the hard work we put in before that :O Reached home at 12 slept at 1. Mad tired.

Saturday was the usual, tuition piano and headed to IT fest. Got my iTouch!!!!! :) :) :) :) :) :) YAYYYY! Love it man! IT fest was mad crowded! Omg like seriously.

Went shopping today with Joy at Fareast. Got my black dress! :D Well, gotta stop and have dinner naoz. BYE! :D

I used to love thinking bout you all day, now I can't wait to stop

“And no matter what, no matter how hard it’s going to be, no matter how long it takes, I will be happy again. I will smile, I will laugh, I certainly will not cry. I refuse to continue crying over something as trivial, as silly as you. I will not let you get to me any longer. I will not allow myself to feel this way anymore, I refuse to let you hurt me any further. You will get what is coming to you. And when that happens, when you fall to the floor, when you reach out to me, just know I won’t be there. I won’t catch you. I won’t tell you it’s going to be all right. I won’t be there. Because you never were. I will not care for you; because you, you never did.” 

Believe

I wanna get a tattoo like this :)

Gosh, I love that crazy feeling. 

FRIDAY WAS AWESOME :)

Hello all! I swear I won't post anything emo here anymore. I'm getting better if you're wondering. I want to thank someone here man!!!! THANK YOU RHINE! :) :) :) HAHA.

Thanks to him I didn't break down on the day I knew sth. LOL. This sentence is weird. But anyway. Here's something he said that maybe will one day appear in some inspirational bookmark at Popular or sth.

"Let yourself let go"- Rhine Tan

It sounds totally the same as Let go. But it sounds so much easier. Don't you agree???
Anyway, thanks Ree!
Thanks for this:

To Yiying,

I don't know issit ok to write it out here (since it's not privated), but...ya, i'm just going to say it here. I know this whole r/s sucks, you and DS, i know. Infact, i very much know how you feel cos you know what happen to me right, about me and that guy(?). But there's a time to cry out, there's a time to talk to someone about it, there's time to be upset about it. But you can never do it that way. Why show him that you cannot live without him? Why show him the most vulnerable side of you? "You can't just wake up one morning and think everything will be different. You've got to do things and leave the past in the past." Remember i retweeted this? It's for you. What's past it past. I know he's being a real jerk by going back to that girl. But what can you do about it? You can't do anything but accept the fact. Know what, just move on, put the past behind especially him. You've got so many people around you that loves you, dont dissapoint them. Go on, prove to him that by breaking up with you for her is his loss. Prove to him you can live your life much better without him. The yiying i know can do it, right? Yes, i know all of us, infact most of us can never understand how you really feel deep down, and i know you're hurt right now. But we're always there for you, to be your listening shoulders. Even though i know one can never forget someone that easily, but i believe you can do it someday. And the next time i see you, i want to see you smiling truthfully again. Stay strong my dear girl♥

,Desiree

YAY! MAD SHOPPING IN JUNE :)

But first before I start on my oh so awesome Friday here's sth for the broken hearted and for me :)

 

FRIDAY WAS AWESOME. But really mad tiring. Started off the day with 5hours of sleep waking up and going to school as usual. Friday was my dear Joy Sng's bday. HAPPY FIFTEENTH GIRL :) I love you babe! Walked around new block to pass money etc and then was Chem. Here's how lessons went. Chem test, slack hcl&ting xie, overloading info on SS, slack recess, boring EL, trying to chiong with teacher Amath and Amath test. After that was Talent Time meeting then lunch then amazingly crazily high guzheng. I'm so glad things turned out better than we thought it would. Games and laughter the shouts and screams the smiles. The "yes, I had a great time" it all felt great. :) :) :) So sad some juniors couldn't join us that day, but anyway, we still had an awesome time!

Well, suddenly, it hit me hard that I have so many things to deal with this year. 2 upcoming events. Talent Time and Mulan Musical :) I CAN'T WAIT FOR MULAN MUSICAL!!!!!!! HERE'S MY NOT DONE UP BUT I STILL WNA ADVERTISE ADVERTISEMENT:

Mulan Musical

29th May 2010
3pm&8pm
NAFA LEE FOUNDATION THEATRE
Tix priced around $20-30
Contact me for tix!
THANKS :)

Lastly, I leave you guys with an awesome video. :)

To watch:
1) Dear John
2) The Last Song
3) Letters to Juliet
4) Remember Me
5) Alice In Wonderland
6) The Notebook

I love Nicholas Sparks♥