Forever doesn't exist.

Forever

Its a Saturday night. 6days before MYE. Man, just finished my chem revision. GO GIRL. :) 

This week's been another hectic week. My Thursday was as busy as last week's. Sighs. Just finished Chem revision. Here to do some last minute blogging. Haven't been blogging since last Friday. But this space here is as dead as ever. 

Memories are there to remind you of the times you were flew and the times you fell. 

But still they make me tear and cry and make me wonder ..

Why do all the happy times always pass by so fast? Why can't they last forever? I guess thats just life.  

It was nervous day, many things happened

Hello all.
Idk why, I suddenly had the real urge to blog. Yay! Tomorrow's the last day of school for this week. Can't wait for more sleeping time! Well, I have like Chemistry to finish up which is due tomorrow and reflection to write on today's election and interview. Was damn nervous just now(OMFG). Ask those around me how I freaked out(LOL). Anyway, I think I did ok. At least I didn't screw the interview up. Ok, I feel damn guilty now that I ain't doing what I'm supposed to do. So bye people. Will be back with something tomorrow/friday :)

make up your mind for once,

you come to me and clear things up for what?? 

Not like my life got anything to do with yours right. -.-

Do you remember the times?

I haven't been touching this place much. Used to blog like 2-3 timesday per day during the holidays, cause I pretty much have nothing to do besides sleep, text, blog, tweet and eat. Haha. Since now my phone is so dead(ok lah, actually got ppl text one. But then ah, sms cannot get into my inbox cause I lazy delete sms mah. And some sms I also want keep, so you see the indecisive me? HAHAHA), I should be blogging more right??? WRONG. I've been obsessed with my itouch lately. Can keep me up till midnight one ley. I also dk how. One small and thin thing with such a small screen can keep me occupied like siao. Pro right? *applauds* But still shows how no life I am. Everyday also like that.

Been so damn NOT productive lately. Stuck at home. Ok lah, got go out but these two days stuck at home :( Sianxzxzx. Today actually have rehearsal for recital ppl one, but ah ... Sadly its been cancelled. So left the one on stage. I ... PREFER TO PLAY THE PIANO. HAHAHAHA. Yeah. Rehearsal's from 7-10pm today. So sad right!!! I hope the people will do quick quick so I can go home and sleep sleep!

Esplanade tmr before CCA with Joy. F-I-N-A-L-L-Y! Supposed to head to Esplanade today before rehearsal with Qianying, sadly rehearsal cancelled :( I really should bring my homework there tomorrow man. Finish them before going for cca. :)

OH WTF. My sister is so damn madly fucking annoying!!! Have you ever seen a stupid girl who is SOOOOO obsessed with her toys that she doesn't want to do a fucking shit??? I HAVE. She's having tuition later on, and the rain has stopped yet she still doesn't want to go. Ok lah, tuition who want to go??? But its a responsibility right!!! And you can't use some shit excuse like "Oh! There's rehearsal later then I cannot eat in 15min so I don't go tuition" ZZZZZ. WTF MAN. Seriously lah. I hate teaching my sister piano. It sounds so damn shitty wrong when she plays and it really does annoy me. She's playing it as if she's being FORCED to do so. Then learn for what sia! Music is supposed to be played when you're enjoying it. Not as if you're being forced. If it is, it just sounds so damn wrong. So to all parents to be: I BEG YOU PLEASE DO NOT FORCE YOUR CHILDREN TO PLAY ANY INSTRUMENT IF THEY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY DON'T WANT TO. Cause it only spoils the meaning of music. Music is supposed to be played and enjoyed. Its supposed to sound soothing to the audience and its suppose to let the player feel happy, its supposed to be a HAPPY thing. Come on, think about it. Can anyone of you out there survive without music? If your answer is yes, you must be mad. Seriously. Be it avan garde music or current 21st century music. People enjoy them! Imagine if you force a slave who totally doesn't like playing music play for you. It defeats the purpose doesn't it? You wouldn't feel happy listening to it, neither will the player. So why force the person and make you two unhappy? Why spoil the meaning of music? Why destroy it? I'll thank you if you don't seriously. Seriously, kids these days are ... UNBELIEVABLE. Ok, I really mean no offence to the good and ok ones out there, but seriously man even the sec1s are horrifying. Typing there hair, yawning and doing their shirt and skirts while being scolded???? I don't see us doing that, yes I admit that we(our batch) had our own mistakes, but I don't see us being so rude when we were being scolded. Like come on man! Have some manners please! When someone says sorry give that person a smile. Cause sometimes YOU were in the wrong too(unless the mistake really damn bad lah, then yalah I understand lor). Don't squeeze pass a person, when you OBVIOUSLY know that person is standing there, JUST to talk to someone across. Like seriously, weren't these supposed to be basic manners??? Yeah, our uniform may not be the best, yea we may have our own rebellion sometimes, but still we have manners at least all right. So you don't go up to people saying that our skirts and blablabla not good then should be strict. Ok lah! Our uniform not good our fault can. But at least we got good results right. You guys come in with liek 23+ we come in with 24+ ok. And we maintain that. Do you??? Please man. Get your facts right and get some manners please. TYVM. :)

Well, ok. Should stop huh.

Shanghai trip in 2 days. Man, time flies. Kinda looking forward I guess. Hmm. This post is gna be long. I'm gna post some stuffs here that should I think belong to lj but I really damn lazy log in lah. And I like how the words look here on blogger than on lj. Cause it makes me feel as if I type very long then I'll feel damn proud of myself. LOL Hahahaha. Should I put a line break??? Hmmm. Nvm, decide later. Anyway here I go.

WARNING: The following will sound kinda emo, so if you really do not want to spoil your mood please do not go on reading. TYVM :)

Just because there's no crash, doesn't mean i'm not falling

WHAAAAATZZZZUUUPPPPP!!!

Hello all! I wna tell you guys that I love my class very very much.
They play a very big role in cheering me up these days.
And I hope we'll remain bonded forever :)

I still remember when it was me

"People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when their right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”

( Flip a coin )

Impossible was never part of my dictionary

Its a second post :)

Life is cruel. The world is cruel. But if you look it at a different perspective, it's totally different. You will want to archive something that is so impossible. People tell you, it's so impossible to do that. But you are possible.

Nothing is impossible. If you will try your best to archive it. Proven.

I didn't want to let the past go, it was so dear to me. But 1 day, reality hit me hard. How long am I going to wait for him? He didn't want to contact me, and here I am such a pathetic fuck waiting for nothing. Nothing at all. So I picked myself up, and open up. I was under a rock for almost a year.

So for those who are still under that love fuck shit, get out of there. Screw the old ones, cause you'll never know the new ones are way better. I might be just saying and in your mind would be like, 'fuck, varron say until like so easy... ask her try la.' I've been there done that. I healed on my own. And I don't believe in shit saying 'time heal everything'. It's just a matter whether do you want to let it go. Even God gives you 100000000 years and your mind is still mindfucking on its own, you will still never let it down. Cause it's you, you give yourself that will power.

Yes, the first months would be painful. Really. You'll miss her/his texts, her/his calls, her/his face, being so close to tgt. You miss her/his presence. But once you grew out of it, get up on your own. 'No 1 could help you, if you don't help yourself.' This is what Joelle told me, 1 of my very good girlfriend. Who is there when I am down.

I admit, I still do have the unwilling to let it go feeling of the memories, but memories are memories. They don't give you food, they don't give you comfort. Sometimes, they give you nightmares, they give you pain.

But they still remains as, Memories.

I love you cousin. ♥ Gosh this makes so much sense. I wish i could stuff all of these in my phone and go through them every single day. Its been ... 17days. 17days ... without him.