I can sum up life with three words: It Goes On

Hello world. This week's been reallllyyyy hectic. Talent time stuffs all the way. Didn't have recess the 4days. Buts till, it was worth it. So lets post about Friday! :D

Friday had lessons as usual, last lesson was Amath test which seriously almost killed me. Then was CCA with damn intense finger technique training. Gosh! I hate the new nails. So difficult to use can! :( Left CCA early for talent time. Reached there and chiong finish banner. Total last minute work. After that went to change into talent time tee(mad chio) and then headed to LT to set up. Spent a lot of time taping the banner up onto the board. Well then the whole thing started. It was crazy just doing the usher part. People don't want to listen blablabla but still manage to overcome it. Had dinner at 830(WOW). After that went back watched talent time and cleared the stuffs. WOW. People love to mess up the LT I tell you. Chips on the floor, program booklet everywhere. And we practically ripped the banner out of the board! HAHA. Talk about the hard work we put in before that :O Reached home at 12 slept at 1. Mad tired.

Saturday was the usual, tuition piano and headed to IT fest. Got my iTouch!!!!! :) :) :) :) :) :) YAYYYY! Love it man! IT fest was mad crowded! Omg like seriously.

Went shopping today with Joy at Fareast. Got my black dress! :D Well, gotta stop and have dinner naoz. BYE! :D






This is to you:

We rarely talk now. Well even if we did, we try to make it sound as normal as possible. Many a times, I look back at the past and wonder why things change why things come and go and why they would never remain the same. Since my previous break up, I've always wanted to go back up to him and say: "Hey, I'd like to thank you for the memories we had, I think I took you for granted. But still .. I want to thank you for being there during that six months and leaving me and then teaching me so many things about life" But I never did. And well, never can anymore. We just haven't been talking for 3years and suddenly going up and talking to him would be just weird. But this time, I ain't gna make that mistake again thus I'm posting this here.

I'll start from the beginning.

Firstly, I'd like to thank you for entering my life, cause you made me smile a little too many times and every smile was really genuine. I was really truly happy when I was with you. Next, thanks for teaching me patience during those 5months, I really needed that. And lastly, thank you for leaving me cause well ... idk. It made me realize so many things. Things as simple as friends who are willing to be there to catch me when I fall. It made me realize the importance of the people around me. It made me realize how much they cared and how much I actually needed them instead of well .. you.

Though we're leading separate lives now, if there's anything you ever need, know that I'll still be that sister you had on the 26th of December and that I'll be there for you :)

Lastly, I hope you have had as many learning points as I had during that period.

Thanks for creating memories with me :)

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I guess things come and go in our lives. It's like a roller coaster ride. Things will never always be smooth sailing. Sometimes we just have to let go of things no matter how much we really don't want to. Sometimes it's for the better or sometimes it might be for the worse. But even so, we pick il a few learning points on our way and we grow and learn from that. Sunday night, a friend of mine texted me this "heh. Nights ! Don't think so much, you did well, at least better than i did" well. This just goes to show i've grown and learnt from my experience with jer. If I didn't do any better this time than wouldn't I have wasted 6months of my life with him?
I wouldn't say it doesn't still hurt, i'd say I'm healing, I'm getting better. Yea, it still hurts to know that I don't matter to him as much as she does. But at least I ain't crying and breaking down as often as i did. I've learnt a lot from what that has happened a month ago, sometimes I still do think back and wonder where I went wrong to have caused him to feel suffocated(yea, I'm a girl alright. I do do such stuffs)(btw, I'd you're Reading. Yes you. You know who you are, I still wna knw where I went wrong. I'd like to tell you where you went wrong too so such mistakes won't get repeated on some other girl too) We're humans, we make mistakes, esp in relationships. Some guys never do know how to treat a girl right cause well ... No one actually taught them to(I swear, I'm gna teach my son how to treat girls in future), you can't exactly blame them for that can you? Thus we're made to grow and learn from one another, it's a human thing. And it's also human to wna hang on to the past. Thus if I'm gna go around telling ppl that i don't love him anymore, I'd be plain lying. But I'm on my path of letting go. Ppl go seperate ways for a reason. If he's made to be with me, he'll return some day. :)

Lastly, I wna thank a person I've been thanking and saying "he's awesome" much too many times. That person in Rhine :) love staying up and talking to him :) they say you'll fall many times life, but you ought to rmb who made you fell and who helped you up. I know it may be unfair to say he helped me up cause many other ppl were there too. But still ... He played a really big role this time :)thanks a lot :) :)

"Let yourself let go" -Rhine Tan