Thank you all :)

You know, when you think that you have just reached the lowest point in your life, when you think that all ain't possible and you just feel like dying, its just then that you realize that there are so many people around you that actually care.

I'm a random person, doing random things whenever I feel like, saying shit and just trashing things out though I know its wrong. Like fighting with the guy at the airport. HAHA. Dumb. (Still, I don't like Jetstar! When does water cost 3 freaking bucks!!! Yea Ms Ho, the paradox of diamond vs water. Its so not true on Jetstar) Anyway.

Thanks Ivy, Joy, Desiree, Jolene, Benedict, Karyn, Bern, Varron, Clara for staying by me, lending me your shoulder and offering me great words to help me feel better. Logging into Twitter today made me feel great, cause the first message I saw was this:

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i want @ywithlove to be happy and forget about guys like him

These are the words that got me on my feet and say: "Yes, I'll stay strong and I'll go on. I'll go on with my life and I'll try and smile genuinely every single day." Thanks babe, I love you so much!

And thanks Ivy. I know you've gone through the exact same thing that I'm going through right now, your advice really helped me. So many maybes and so many hopes we try to hold on to. Every time we wna forget and move on, that sudden moment just disappears.

21 Feb 10, 10:32 IVY: don't show out?

21 Feb 10, 10:32 IVY: maybe he's feeling the same too? You know guys don't show their feelings. Just giv him time to think over. morever, he has his O's this year wad. Perhaps he felt how you lyk you are now, just that he

Thanks for this :) Maybe it is true. I'm hoping it is.

To Joy Sng, babe. I wna tell you to not be so confused, we both are right now. Mixed up and kinda lost. Love bring us down sometimes I guess. Thanks for coming to me the first thing in the morning and being there when I literally cried my heart out. And thanks for the toilet paper. HAHA.

And to Clara, thanks for the hug on that very first day of single hood. It made me feel better though I just couldn't hold back my tears when you hugged me. HAHA.

And to all you people out there. Thanks. :)

Him walking out of my life made way for my family to walk into my life, for suddenly taking over such a great space in me. I can't express how much I love my family and how crazy they are. From the "We are so cute" aunts to the Crazy adrenalin cousin. And there is the oh so awesome artist who I enjoy being with so much and the amazing saxophone player. And there is the works in Japan Uncle who is obviously able to buy me so many awesome stuff and the super cute grandma who everyone agrees that she is so cute! HAHA. And there is also the still very healthy 73year old grandpa who is still working and there is the super smart siblings who studies in HCI and RGS. These are the awesome-st people of all. I love them so much.

I thank my friends for being with me all the time and cheering me up.

These people showed me that life is worth it, and you don't need a guy in your life to make things all good. Though I'll admit, yes. I do still love him. Cause I have like I've never loved before. But still I remember what I said once: "If you really love a person, you'll just want him to be happy" And yes. I still mean it. And I do. Though I may be waiting. Though things may not always be smooth sailing from now on, but still ... I'll move on, I'll walk my life with my heads up, I'll put on a smile and have a positive thought to everyday.

I'm gna change my display picture to pictures of my babes and family. I don't need an "I♥DS" there to help me get through the day.

Go on Yiying, Play on. You'll get through it someday.

And here, I'd like to say. I'll never fall in love till I'm 18 again. Never.

I still do love you.