930. Didn't give a fuck about studying today. Brain too tired ready. Monday study till evening, tue study till evening, we'd study till evening, thur study till evening. Today want me study 我不是会死？？？ I love typing chinese in itouch man! So awesome!
Sighs. Life isn't treating me very well right now. Just when I thought I let go of dd ready, I get confused with my feelings yet again. I .. Don't .. Want .. To .. Fall .. For .. Rhine. Fuck my vulnerable heart. Why can't you speak louder plssssssssss???? I'm like begging for you to do so :( it will make my life so much easier! Like seriously. 为什么我会那么盼望着他的sms呢？我现在觉得很乱。有人可以让我知道我为什么觉得那么孤独吗？我好像觉得生活很像完全失去了他的意义。我好盼望他的sms会在我的手机上出现。他只是个朋友对吗？咳。。。do you know why I'm feeling this way? I seriously dk. Is it because he helped me get this feeling of loneliness away thus when he's not here I feel so alone? Please, someone tell me. I've got a lot of sorting out to do. I need to know what exactly I am feeling. Why I yearn for his SMS so much. Dammit.
