A new chapter of you and I

Talk about being happy. I wonder how many of you will think. Is it a simple thing to do as claimed by some?
Many a times we wonder how we should achieve this happiness that some already may have. After watching five ways of happiness, it just seems ironic to me. Happiness seems so simple to them. It doesn't take millions of dollars, a thousand cars and houses or amazing results. It just takes a bed to sleep on, a roof over your head and food on the table everyday. Then why do some of us make it seem asnif it's so difficult to achieve? Ain't that what we get every single day?Maybe it's just because of that many ppl take the simple things we get for granted. It makes it seem compulsory in life. But I guess it rarely crosses our mind that some ain't able to fill their tummies everyday. I admit, I do feel as if life has been treating me unfairly. Looking at the situation I'm going through, I feel as if the hardwork I have put in has all gone to waste. I do feel "I put so much effort into the relationship, yet he left and loved her. Oh god, he's a damn fucking liar" but I guess, taking a step back, looking at the whole situation again. I think about what I did and what he did. Then I realize  we both had faults in the ending to this relationship. It has only been two months, they say it takes time to heal. I guess so.
Many a times I thinn that it will only take him to return to me to make me happy again, to put a double smile on my face again. But still looking atthe situation now, I doubt it will ever happen. Thus happiness seems so far for me to achieve right now. But hey, I have my friends out there who care for me as if I were their sister. I get smses like "hey baby, I just wanna say I love you!", strangers who reply to my tweets with "even though I don't know what's hurting you, but I just want you to remember that the sun always shine when morning comes". Friends telling me"you're the best" when I know I ain't perfect. Friends telling me "if you ever get back with him I won't friend you any more ah!" and friends who go "please stop thinking bout this. It only makes you unhappy".  Then I thinn about why am I so unhappy? Shouldn't I feel lucky instead? With my friends standing by me through this shit though I know they have their own problems too. I should feel thankful instead of feeling so down. Besides, he ain't the only guy out there. He doesn't even treasure me. He doesn't take every oppurtunity he gets to come and see me, calling me feels as if it's a duty instead of an enjoynment, he doesn't text me as often as I text him. He doesn't get what I did for him, he doesn't appreciate it, his souveniers were always bought last cause I always tried to make it perfect. He didn't know how much it hurts when he said I was hard to please. He didn't know I've always waited for him to text me till I really could not take it. He doesn't know the pain I'm still going through now. As all my friends have said "he ain't worth me."
Happiness is a state of mind. How we see our present. It's up to us to decide if we want to be happy. It's up to us to see if we want ourselves to be happy. You can either see the cup as half full or half empty.
So this is to all the ppl out there who deem their life as dull, borin and totally not worth living for. Let me tell you this. You are lucky. Much luckier than those people who live through the days trying to fill hit tummies, who live through the day with bellies bloated with air. You have a roof over your head. Three meals a day. They don't. You have people standing by you everyday in your life. People who talk to you, people who love you. And people who will stick through you through anything no matter how bad things may be. Unlike some who are left with no kin. You see? This is life. Not everything runs smoothly and falls into place like you wish they would. The walls are there to keep you out, to give you a chance to prove how much you really want something. Their there so that you'll finally realize how much something matters to you and how muh you're willing to give to attain that something.
So let's all smile and think about the positive things in life. Think about how much life is filled with, how wonderful it actually. Let's look at the good things in the cruel reality and appreciate everything and everyone that we have. Go on with life with a smile. Cause a smile is a curve that get things straight.
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I've learned a lot these months. But the ultimate thing I've learned is letting go. First letting go of him then letting go of my seniors. Yes their still here but not where I want them to be. So ... It's all about letting go. It's also about choices and how it'll affect my future. Also it's about listening to your heart and trusting your intuition. Somehow it's always right. Man. This is a long post. Today marks 2months since my heart got broken. But today ... It marks a new beginning too. A beginning to a new friendship where each of us have grown. I still can say, I've learned a lot from him. He taught me so much through the experiences we've been through. It's time for me to let go of the hatred. "when you no longer hate a person, you no longer love them" -Wan Ting
I know I should can I do it now?
Lifes been so hectic now. Reheasals are piling like mad. Performance is only about a month away. Gotto change my tuition timings. Man! Midyears coming too which means jve got lots of revision and piano practising to do! Really have to chiong piano. Mye is only a month away. A month doesnt even seem enough to master those pieces :( gotta work triplely hard!!! Study session with Javier and co tmr :) ciao world!

Choosing to turn the page again. It's a new chapter of you and me.