Chapters come and go

Music: -/
Mood: Hungry

Books are written. The sweetest of chapters are remembered. Some are forgotten. Some are burned. But they are still written.
-Ben Romans

Hello World. I'm supposed to be studying right now but apparently, I'm not. -.- See, failure man. Hmmm. Karyn Choy has been pointing out real often this week that my temper has been getting from bad to worse. :X oh great. I shall make an effort to improve. Well, something ds pointed out ytd really scares me. Have a really changed? Like seriously. For the better or for the worse? Many stuffs can't just help but pop up into my mind whenever I'm studying or just doing so stuff. Sometimes I'm able to tell myself: "2 more weeks and you're free girl. Just study. Its just 2weeks" and then snap back to my studying mood. But sometimes, I can't. I wonder why. Just that, many things have been happening. Sometimes relationships ain't the hardest to work with, sometimes its the friendship part that is. I can see cliques coming to an end, I can see us going seperate ways. I hope this is just some small quarrel we'll experience and things will turn out like how LAPCB always turns out, fine and even better than that. No relationship with a person is ever smooth sailing. We've got our ups and downs. Hopefully that we don't split up just because of this. Its just not worth it. Can you look back at those memories that we have and not be able to feel sad that we're losing what we have? We're drifting haven't you noticed that by now? We say, don't you think you've changed, your reply is :"Haven't you thought that its the other way around?" Then tell us, in what way have we changed? If you are our friend, if you sincerely want to be friends with us, then tell us. Friends ain't there just to crap and hang out with. Their there to be a part and parcel of our life, they affect us greatly and their there for a reason. To help us grow and mature and good friends bring us on the right path. I believe that I made the right choice of friends, please don't let me regret treating you two so well in the past. If I didn't bother about anything, will I have helped you guys in the competition? Will I have helped you in your relationship problems? Will I even bother to listen? No. I treat friends seriously. I know my temper isn't very good and that sometimes I may treat you guys as a punching bag, for those times, I'm really sorry. But I can't stand losing the friendship that we have. I once thought that what we have is really important to the five of us and that we could never bear to put this friendship to an end, but I don't see it now. Really. I'm beginning to think that its just useless to continue with this friendship when I don't see you guys putting an effort into it. I don't know if you guys will read this, but then again. If you do, after EOYs, we'll sit down and just talk about this. I can't think of a reason why we're drifting, I can't see how I've changed. But really, please. Just tell me. Even if it hurts and is too straightforward, just tell me. All I want to know is the truth. I hate being left in suspense and not know what is going on.

Well, I'm done with this chunk of (insert stupid description here). Its what that has been on my mind 24/7. Well, 13days till EOY. I haven't started math. 1.5hours to study till I have to leave for tuition. 13days girl, just 13 more days. 13days and many things will happen. Really, just bear with it. Its just 13days! Goodluck to all for EOYs. I shall be on hiatus from now till the end of EOY(: Ciao world.

with love,
yiying(: