Chapter 11: You brushed pass that subject

Man baby, there is no school today ! :D A very good thing(: Finally, I've got lots of time to slack today. Movie first, then go giant buy FBTs, then go Tampanies 1 shop. :D I'm happy now, but not for long. i've decided to tell my story, and see how will his reaction be. Well, anyway. I'll blog when I get back if not Karyn Choy would kill me. :O Hahaha.

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Hahahaha. I'm back from my day out(: Ohohoh, I've got a song to post! Listen to this. Its by my all time favourite: THE CLICK FIVE. Oooooohhhh ! Can't wait for their new album. Hope they'll come to Singapore next year too. I will DEFINITELY GO ! Awesome man. Take a listen!


I quit
My old ways
I quit ignorin’ all the things you say
Quit gettin’ high
Stayin’ out all night
I quit to keep you from lettin’ me go
You say it’s over, but I’m sayin’ no!

I quit! I quit! I quit!
But I ain’t givin’ you up
You got that somethin’ that I can’t get enough of
I’d give you anything
But I ain’t givin’ you up
Either way, you’re the fix
That’s why I quit! I quit! I quit!

Give me
Another shot
Forgive me baby for the things I forgot
I’ll never be
In your magazines
They got two reasons for leavin’ me flat
But I got a big one for takin’ me back

I quit! I quit! I quit!
But I ain’t givin’ you up
You got that somethin’ that I can’t get enough of
I’ll give you anything
But I ain’t givin’ you up
Took a hit, you’re the fix
That’s why I quit! I quit! I quit!

If you knew I could change
Would it change anything?
You saw right through
You knew and now you’re gone
Now you’re gone.........

*Guitar solo*

I quit! I quit! I quit!
But I ain’t givin’ you up
You got that somethin’ that I can’t get enough of
I’ll give you anything
But I ain’t givin’ you up
Either way, you’re the fix
That’s why I quit! I quit! I quit!

That’s it! That’s it! I quit!
But I ain’t givin’ you up
You got that somethin’ that I can’t get enough of
I’d give you anything
But I ain’t givin’ you up
Took a hit, you’re the fix
That’s why I quit! I quit! I quit!

(I quit!)
I quit! I quit! I quit!
(That’s it! I quit!)
That’s it! That’s it! I quit!
(I quit!)
I quit! I quit! I quit!

I quit I quit I quit.

And I do want to quit. But, I ain't gonna quit half way. Not like before, I'm gonna be brave. I'm gonna do this to the fullest. If we're not meant to be. Then so be it. But still, I will go on. Even if it hurts me. But at least I would know the truth. Guessing is hard, and difficult. You never know what the person really wants. I may have lost. But this isn't final yet. I'm still floating, waiting for the answer to drop out of no where. I know it ain't gonna happen. But why do I still go on waiting, like some asshole. I hate feeling like this, I don't want to. I rarely have to. I thought people are supposed to feel happy when they fall right deep in love. I thought its a lucky thing? I thought ... I thought so many things. I realized that I'm ohso wrong. To fall in love, I can't control. I wanted to so much, to have that special person by my side for me to lean on and cry when I'm unhappy. To laugh and share my happiness with. But when I thought I found that very person, I found out too late. When he got taken away, then i realize. That its just oh too late. Though its too late, but I just want to let you know. Boy, I love you ohso much. Though you're with her already, and I know you're happy. I don't want to seperate you guys and see you unhappy thats why I keep all these in me. It ain't a good thing, it destroys my heart. But for your happiness, I shall. But when I think about me. I ain't happy at all. So, maybe I shall be selfish. I shall let you know. But I will make it clear that I don't want to let you get stuck in the middle. I know sometimes you do care. At times you're good. At times you're one I would want to hold forever. But, you don't care every single second, you're not good enough now. And I know I can't have you. Cause its god's will. And so let it be. Let this be all a mistake in my life that I would learn from. I would pick up experienceds, throw away the bad memories and move on. But to move on, I need to tell you. Its what my heart is telling me to do. So, I shall. I follow, I know the truth. I get hurt, I learn, I gain ... and most importantly, I move on. I will. Girl, you will.

Speaking of God's will, watched Angels and Demons like I said I would. It is interesting, and I find the part of history in the story interesting. May read it up in my own. Its damn interesting bout how you are able to solve mysteries like that. Feel like reading up the history on christianity. Most slightly going to library on Monday before school. Haven't been there in a long long long long time. Its interesting bout how they battle between science and catholic. Its weird, this world is made up of both science and religions, but their opposing forces. Just like a magnet. They belong to one world, but just pushes each other apart. The world requires a little bit of both I guess. Religions, they bring people down. They follow a path. It guides them to where their supposed to go. Science, it makes sense of things in this world. I don't know why they oppose, maybe its God's teachings that science people don't like. I think you can't believe too much in one thing, its bad for you sometimes. I'm a buddhist, but I do say god's will at times. Cause I believe, things are meant to happen at their own will. It may be someone's will, maybe god, maybe its just fate. Maybe I'm meant to learn from whatever I'm going through right now. Call me emo, call me a loner i don't care. Cause maybe, I like to lone myself from people around me now. So anyway, back to my point. I follow buddhism cause I think that its open bout things but we still have a path to go to. A path to let us follow. I guess, science, religions, they both have something to say. They both want to explain the laws of this world, this universe. They just have a different way of interpreting it. They both have the same goal, they just do things differently, I believe there are still people now that oppose these facts, that god doesn't exist blabla, science is ohsofake. No, okay, sorry if this would hurt people. But no I don't believe in those stuff. I do believe that god exist, but I do believe in science too. I think Dan Brown is a cool writer. He doesn't mean to oppose christianity, but just wants to prove a point. Well, okay, I realize this post is long long long! Lets talk bout my day now. It was a little screwed, cause my plans were screwed by Karyn choy. No offence, but yea. I really must have a girls day out with Karyn and Ivy soon. Talking bout them on love is really, hmmm ... interesting? Haha. I mean, I get to learn more, through discussing and all. But, yea. It is good. Well anyway, met ben and karyn and pasir ris mrt. Then went DTE watch movie, well I went to mrt thn go dte one big round here and there leh, wah sian. Really cannot ask Karyn to plan stuff. She plan damn shi bai sia. Meeting time also suck to the core man. Time management don't want to say. Can puke lar. Anyway, go DTE, then met asher. Then went to Giant first, bought my FBTs, then went ikea eat. MEATBALLS ! Hahahahaha. So anyway, though its ex, but I think it was worth it. Cause exams over, and I said I will pamper myself. And I will ! So anyway, after that went back to Tampanies one. Karyn had to go home, asher went, ben dunno. But I just went to shop myself. Just needed sometimes alone to think. Anyway, bought earpiece! :D I love the sound of my ipod now. Cool cool coolie ! Hahahahaha. So after that went back home. Well, thats bout it bah. Tomorrow got piano and uhoh. I haven't practised scales man. Die. Chers gonna kill me. But I did practise alot for my performance piece though. haha.
Okay, anyway saying those stuff here just now was a danger, so I just want to say. Saying these things here, I hope I don't hurt anyone's feelings. I just want to voice my opinions on these stuff, so please forgive me if I accidentally do.

with love,
yiying(: