/guilt kills

omg larh.
been so guilty seens last night.
mom finally told me i could go beijing
she said she'll persuade my dad into letting me go.
but she said we won't be going to like australia which we planned since last year
my dad and all were so looking forward to it,
thn she say she'll sacrifice that trip for me to go beijing.
so i feel like i'm the one who make the whole family cannot go overseas.
i think i heard my mom and dad abit like quarelling because of this lorh.
hai ...
but i really want to go beijing.
seriously i do.
i think that i wouldn't go overseas and have as much fun.
though it'll be tiring since we're flying the day right after camp,
but i don't mind seriously.
i know i've been to the places beofre,
but how much can i recall ?
i was 10 at that time.
i could barely understand wth the guide was talking about.
so maybe go there i would be able to understand and all.
whatever larh.
i can say i want to go is partly because of going with friends,
my dad said i'll be able to go if i use my angbao money which are savings for my uni.
which means,
i need to get a scholar for poly/jc and uni.
so right after i come back ,
it'll be mugging hard.
score well for MYE first.
thn get the sub combi i'll do best in.
start working hard in sec3,
score in o's
thn get my scholar.
if my dad can do it,
so can i.
i will do it.
ohh, and i won't be able to go overseas in jc or other overseas trip.
so, end of year have to start working.
maybe help my grandma with her chinchow buisness first.
save save save !
heard from ivy they went beijing last year and they paid like 800bucks.
which is okay.
i hope i go at that kind of price after subsidy and all.
but, its abit impossible.
their 800 is with their cher digging funds,
so PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE,
dig for funds.
i hope seriously.
i pray hard hard hard to be able to go at at least 1000bucks.
currently its $1498,
which is not little.
its ex.
VERY EX !
omg. i feel so guilty larh.
i'll bring my extra cash and all,
so my mom won't have to pay for my shopping there.
its not gonna be alot,
but you still need cash with you.
i seriously feel very bad.
i'm like asking ivy bout her beijing trip again and again,
and it all revolves around the price,
and been complaining bout my guilt,
the price and everything bout the money to karyn till she's like irritated ler. =x
man,
i hope i can sleep soundly tonight.
seriously man,
i somehow think i can't.
brother just got new phone.
LG Secret !
the games are freaking cool !
haha.
and i think the design much nicer thn mine
and i thought Soul was cool.

with love,
yiying(: