After happiness always comes the saddest times

Hey peepos! Havent posted for some time though I was super free. Didnt have the mood to post. Especially today. But, just decided to voice out whatever I had to say. Ohkaeyys, lets start.
Today is like the super suckishest day of my entire sec1 life. I hate it to the core man! My wish for good results for sec1 are completely crumpled, stepped on, crushed into millions, billions, trillions, kezillion pieces, so suckish that I have no idea what to do now, I feel like giving this whole studying thing up, its seriously getting on my nerves I so hate it and I really feel like quiting but I have no choice but to go on and work harder but its just so difficult when you have these "Your results are f***ing suckish and is totally no use trying to buck up cause their pratically hopeless and nothing you do will ever bring in up" words stuck in my head staring at me whenever I try to pick up my books to study I hate it when its 50+ though I didnt fail but I feel that I've failed my parents, my teachers and myself its not that i didnt study, i did it still didnt help I have no idea how to face studying now or even looking at the teachers yes they tell me its no use crying now obviously i know that and i never cry about my results neither does my parents scold me for it and I seriously think that that is just sick and wrong its entirely wrong and I seriously hate it I hate studying my teachers and parents are so disappointed though they dont say anything but I feel that i'm disappointing myself I seriously feel like quiting this suckishness and this studying, I'll only continue to make myself feel worse if I continue studying My results were improving before EOY and I thought I was on a safe side, who knew that they woud drop now I think to myself "Whatever, I dont care anymore Since its no use studying, why continue to?"
Yeaps, I've said it all. 11/10 was a super funn day, and i had a blast and when I came back to school , its all hit me just like that. I just couldnt take it. I've hanged out with some of the people I've cared and loved so much on that very day, "Thanks for making me smile peepos! Hope we'll hang out soon. Missinq yea guys already!(:" Haii ... I think I should blog about that very day. Kay, let me go again.
Met Cheerlyn and CAPS opposite the bus stop and walked to escape then on the way met the twins they were going to meet Teck Soon ahDi so then Derrine walk so fast then after that we pangseh her and went to look for Jing Xiang first then Derrine came then we bought tickets while the boys went to dunno where then we went in first played the "shai tai yang ride" then went to sit roller coaster then saw claris then sat inverter for the first time!(: Last time go always close , finally get to sit!(: Quite fun larh, first time was scary but sit a few times ler then okay ler. so then met the boys. Teck Soon went home and then Jx came with Wx. So then we play play play. Everytime go sit Wet & Wild always look like going to rain then like so worried later cannot sit. at the end never rain. Dumb larh. So play till 6.15 had to go liao. awwww ... so sad larh. So, me and Cheerlyn went home while the twins went to have dinner before going home. Claris and the boys continued playing I guess. So then we went to pick my maid up from airport then went to have dinner. Then after that went to get a new haircut. It wasnt really different but at least can tell the difference. I quite satisfied with it, just then very difficult to tie hair when go school.
Alright peepos. Buh-byes!(: